When I am here, truly HERE, I am near (in my truth, heart, and soul), I am someone I don’t fear. I am me and me is I, within, my sacred soul!
The explosion seems unreal, fire bursting above and all around me; I am trapped, stuck in an inferno of unimaginable pain and suffering, my feet beginning to give under the extreme pressure of emotional turmoil. I keep walking but I know I am not here as I turn around and see my lifeless body draped on the scorching ground, arms splayed above my head in an attempt to pull myself to safety. I stand motionless staring into the darkness above my body that is surrounded by the vibrant flames, unable to move, frozen in a state of fear, imprisoning my ability to be safe, to walk in my truth, and to choose, to make a choice. Tears stream down my face as my heart wants to choose peace and love, freedom and joy, but the fear has gripped my heart, my throat, and my being and I allow it, feeling it take over my body, my being; feeling it begin to drain my hopes, my dreams, my life force.
In the distant I see a body moving toward us/me, engulfed in white light and with a large Wolf. Her eyes a mystical piercing shade, staring into my soul with a presence of peace, determination and profound and transformational possibilities. She scares me. She sees my body and my spirit separated and she says: You have choices
- You can stay in this exact moment, frozen and fueling your cells with the memory of fear, pain, and suffering, creating illness within your being, lost and trapped in shame, guilt, and sadness. And you will learn and grow.
- You can leave your body in fear, trapped in an optical illusion of false realities but a reality still the same, allowing your spirit to move on, yet still trapped in whatever pain you hold in this moment, frozen in the burning fire within the void, lost, held hostage in your own self sabotage. And you will learn and grow.
- You can step back into your body, feeling your fear fully, acknowledging it for the power it brings and transmuting it to create whatever you choose, whatever you desire in this moment, this space, yet still stuck in time and space. And you will learn and grow.
- You can step back into your body and allow me to bring you back to your being bringing your truth and your gifts to transmute the energy, make your own choices, choose your own path, create your own story, and write your own transformation. And you will learn and grow and share and transcend.
I know her, she is me.
When I am here, truly HERE, I am near (in my truth, heart, and soul), I am someone I don’t fear. I am me and me is I, within, my sacred soul!
Many blessings
~~Kathy